Why blog?

Last night I had the opportunity to have tea time with one of my sisters (Thanks for the visit, Wannett).



It was nice to be available for some long overdue chit-chat time.... just the two of us... a rarity!; and I didn't need to feel guilty about leaving anyone at home because Blake, Jared, and Billy had gone to a movie; and Jon, Jake, and Mikey were out cutting wood.



One of the things Wannett and I did was look at my blog. I wanted to see how things appeared on her computer. (It kinda distorted our faces, making them long and skinny-looking..... don't get me wrong, I LIKE skinny!, but I already have a long-shaped face, so her computer's image of me and Jon and the kids didn't do us justice.... oh well.... get over it Michelle).



One of Wannett's questions was, "How long DOES it take you to do a post?" I said, "Oh not too long, depending on the post". Then I thought about it.... sometimes it SEEMS as though it's not a long time, but I check out the clock and think, "Oh Man! I've got to get off this computer and get something accomplished in this house today!" That ol' clock just ticks away quicker than I think.






But I find this blog is therapeutic for me. I've always wanted to journal or keep diaries, and it's just never happened. This is sort of like that, but more fun because you can add pictures. And I can write about whoever I want and post it for, literally, the whole world to see! hahaha (So, be nice to me, folks.... hahahhaa)



I decided that it doesn't matter if I have lots of readers.... I might be the only one who reads this blog. (And some days, I AM!) Some days I wonder why people even keep returning! I think, "I'm sure they MUST have a life... what are they doing HERE?"



But I follow other blogs where people say the same thing. I LOVE checking in to see how my friends are doing. (Christine: FYI, you've gone MONTHS without a post!) And I LOVE 'travelling the blog world' around Canada and down to the States to see what's happening in the lives of others.



Following other blogs has helped me to not whine about my own life (well, at least not whine as much!)..... there are people who are really going through some very trying times. And because my trials at this time are not as intense as their's, I can take that time to pray for them and their situation. One lady always says that she can't understand why people want to know how many diapers she's changed, what she served for lunch, and if she got flowers watered or not; but her followers are interested in what she has to say, no matter how menial, so.... she posts.






I think a lot of it hinges on the fact that so many of us are going through things, and we need to know we're not alone. We all have the trials and tribulations.... (you're just coming out of one, you're currently going through one, or 'do-up-your-seatbelt' because a trial is on it's way!).... and it's good to know you have a support system.



There are a bunch of caring people out there! There are blogs that have thousands of people checking in every day. What a great support system. Even our situation with Blake's decline in health.... I can post updates, people can check in, and bang!... countless prayers rise upwards to our Father on Blake's behalf. If that's all this blog does, then it's worth it.



I appreciate reading blogs where I am uplifted and encouraged, blogs that hit the nail on the head because they speak to exactly what I'm experiencing. Like today, for example. I checked out a blog, that's intended to "(in)courage", and the story hit home with me. Check it out by clicking here.


Oh, someday I'll be able to share my story with you, or at least parts of it; but for now, like the above "(in)courage" article, there's a pile of garbage that's been dumped on my floor. And, yes, it stinks. It's a rotting mess. And "I" am the only one, with God's help, to clean it up.... even though it's not my mess. Someone else dumped their garbage, thinking they had the right to dump it and then carry right on with their own lives as if nothing had happened.






"They" left the mess and "I" get to clean it up. Nope, not fair at all. But God never said life would be fair. And I can't leave their garbage here on my floor because its stench affects me and my family. So, with God's help, it's getting cleaned up, little garbage bag by little garbage bag.



[sigh]


Well, Wannett, in answer to your question of how long it takes to do a post.... today I shall answer "too long". And the system won't allow me to upload any pictures today, so add on a few extra minutes to sort out THAT problem.

(Update as of 9:36pm.... Wannett: I wrote this post this morning, but Blogger had problems with uploading the pics, so I waited until tonight. In reference to your question, I guess technically the post took about half an hour to type, but if you want to get REALLY particular, it took about 13 hours and 30 minutes. Haha.)


Time to get organized and get something accomplished. But just unloading that one particular garbage comment has already made me feel that I've accomplished something. Pray that I get the "non-permit-dumped-garbage" cleaned up. Pray that the Lord gives me direction in how to clean it up properly and effectively and get rid of it at His disposal site so that the floor is cleaner and the air is fresher.


And while we're on prayer, let me know how I can pray for YOU. Going through a trial? Got any stinky garbage? Don't feel that you need to share your details, simply just tell me how I can pray for you.

Day By Day

One of my favourites.

I don't think I need to say anything here.... the words on the video seem to say it all.

Enjoy.

Blake's Health Update 2009/09/08

....and the questions have already started to roll in!





This morning was Blake's abdomenal ultrasound.




And the answer is........





....I DON'T KNOW THE RESULTS YET.





The technician did not share anything with Blake as to whether she found anything of any interest or not. At this point, test results will go to our Doctor C and she will let us know. And since her office is closed on Wednesdays, I'm bettin' (IF, of course, I was a betting kind of gal) that I won't hear anything until Thursday.





That's the latest scoop, folks. You now know all that I know.





So.... please keep praying. He's had a rough last few days with some pain and weakness. He says if he can lay still and not move, then the pain subsides somewhat. But as soon as he gets up to visit the Little Boys Room or gets up to grab something to eat, he experiences pain.





I am not, for the most part, delivering his food to him as he lays sprawled out on the couch because I am not wanting him to get NO exercise! I figure he needs to be SOMEWHAT mobile or else he's gonna seize up.


He said sometimes he feels so weak that there is pain shooting down his legs when he starts walking. I'm wondering if that's just a matter of not enough physical activity; however, we will mention that to Doctor C on our next visit.





In the meantime, I will let you know as soon as I get the ultrasound results. Please be in prayer for the upcoming colonoscopy on September 14th.
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And I'm bettin' (IF, again of course, I was a betting kind of gal) that you're all wondering WHAT kind of picture I'll be posting on Colonoscopy Day. Well.... won't THAT be.... ummmm...... keeping you at the edge of your seat. HAHAHAHAAHAHA ~ Oh, I'm so sorry... I just couldn't resist that pun. HAHAHA
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Cast all your anxieties on Him because He cares for you. (1 Peter 5:7)

See Blake... See Blake RUN!

My question is....









Do you see any similarities here?





Blake




Abby

Blake, I TOLD you already.... when you see Aunt Danielle with a hairbrush and elastics.... RUN FOR THE HILLS!!!!!



Yesterday she bought a new pack of brightly coloured hair elastics.... there must've been, like, FIFTY ELASTICS... maybe MORE!



I'm TELLIN' ya..... RUN, boy, RUN!!!!!!!!!

Blake's Health Update 2009/09/06

Just a quick update to let y'all know that not much has changed over the last few days in Blake's condition.




Blake has spent most of the week at Grandpa & Grandma Fraser's house, just up the road from us. He came home nightly for a couple of hours to talk to his sweetheart in Brazil via Skype (Hi Anelyse!), then would head back to my parents' home for more quality visiting time.





Right now he's sleeping in the tub!




He's usually up about 2-3 times through the night. I don't even hear him get up! Remember when they were babies and you could hear them roll over in their crib???




He's still feeling very weak and experiencing pain. Jeesh, these tests just can't come soon enough; however, I am very thankful that the doctors have sped them up for us. People can wait months and months for tests, so I'm grateful we're only waiting a few days or weeks.





We're going to church this morning. I'm excited to see how everything looks, now that everything is put back in it's place! Our church was just recently renovated with a new paint job and new carpeting. I was asked to assist in picking out colours and carpeting, and although some folks are somewhat 'concerned' with the colours we've chosen, I'm liking it better everytime I see it. I guess if it's a colour that they don't like, they can ask the Lord to ensure that He doesn't have their Mansion in Glory painted in that tone! hahaha.





So Tuesday is the date for Blake's abdomenal ultrasound. Maybe we'll have more news for you by the end of the week. Please continue to pray that his pain is minimal (or better yet, GONE) and that he gains some strength from the protein drinks he's consuming, recommended by the doctor to get his strength built up and get some nourishment into him.





Maybe we will soon get THIS silly boy back:





Blake, you've been hanging out with Little Cousin Abby too long.... :O) When you see your Aunt Danielle with a hairbrush and elastics..... RUN!!!!

Blake's Health Update 2009/09/03

There are many things I appreciate about the blogging world. It's a channel to keep you updated in someone's life, to view some amazing photos, to read some amazing testimonies and Scripture references....

...and the one thing I've noticed it's most used for is keeping people posted on the health of a loved one.



With Blake's health going downhill lately, it seems there are some days that the phone just doesn't stop ringing, and I find myself repeating the same old story over and over to caring loved ones who are calling to find out how our dear little fella is feeling.

Don't get me wrong, folks... I am most appreciative of your care and concern and am glad that you care enough to stay informed and up-to-date on his 'progress'....

However, I thought it might be easier for those of you with computers, or those of you who must dial long distance, to check in here at our family blog and get updates.

However, that being said typed, don't think that you can't ever call. We know you care and we know you're concerned, and we ask for your prayers as Blake goes through this valley..... 'through' being the key word.... there WILL be a diagnosis and treatment, and we WILL get THROUGH this and come out on the other side! I have such peace about that.




Now to get y'all up to speed.....

You might recall this post, Praying For My Blake, where I gave a bit of information to you. Right now, I'd like to just give a quick review of where things started and where things stand now. Then as more appointments and progress are made, I can keep you informed on a regular basis via this blog.

Blake - July 4th, 2009

Here's a review of the past year and a half:



Late Winter/early Spring 2008 I noticed Blake just not feeling himself, not wanting to eat much, a little thin (but nothing alarming), a little bit of moodiness (a.k.a. giving Momma attitude!), fatigued. Blake was planning on going to Brazil on a missions trip July 2008, and I was concerned that his health was going downhill and he wouldn't be well enough to go. As it turned out, he went. All was well.

Same symptoms happening over the next few months. Made appointments with Doctor W. She suggested he get more sleep and eat better. [insert something-not-sitting-right-in-Momma's-gut here!]. Oh well, what do "I" know... she's the doctor, right?


Things still not getting better. Blake is now planning missions trip to New Orleans, USA for March 2009. Hmmm.... Momma still concerned about his travelling with health slowly going downhill. Son ignores Momma and continues with 'attitude'. Momma told by other parents "it's a teen thing... you're lucky you're experiencing it at 18 years old, most parents go through this when their child is 14". Hmmm.... this is just not sitting right with Momma's gut.


Blake goes to New Orleans, but comes back feeling worse. Small rash started before departing to New Orleans, but is worse upon his return. Go to doctor. Betaderm fixes up the rash over time; however, other symptoms are still getting worse. "Get to bed earlier and choose healthy foods, [Insert Mom's under-her-breath-growling here] and, let's get some bloodwork done again."


Over the balance of the Spring, his health is going downhill at Whistler-Mountain-speed. Going to take him to Doctor C, who is our main doctor. She suggests more bloodwork and is concerned, knowing she is not looking at a normal Blake, who she has known since his birth.



Fast forward a bit to approximately July 2009. Food, or even water, goes in Blake's mouth and comes out the other end in practically minutes. A lot more weight loss. A lot more fatigue. A lot more weakness. A lot of stabbing stomach pain. A lot of back pain.


More bloodwork.


Then more bloodwork and stool samples.

(and don't think THAT wasn't fun! The kids were all "grossed out" at the thoughts of THAT! hahahaha. Then to top it off, the nurse at the doc's office didn't indicate to me that it was time sensitive and had to be at the lab within 24 hours! We FINALLY got the MANY samples done on a Friday afternoon and took to the lab on a Monday....... "No, no, no," said the technician, "I hate to tell you this, but you'll have to do it again!" oh joy. oh bliss. Blake-Not-Impressed. (Trust me, neither am "I"!) I said to the technician, "BUT I KEPT IT COLD over the weekend!". "Doesn't matter... you'll need to do it again... sorry!"


Results of bloodwork are showing some "goings-on" with rheumatoid. Nothing to panic about; however, Doctor C wants to ensure that things are checked out a little more carefully by a rheumatologist. She feels we are possibly dealing with more than one scenario here, but is confident we will get a diagnosis.


The problem? No one is doing operative procedures/testing because it's summer time. Everyone is on holidays. Doctor can't get response from rheumatologist's office. Uhhhhh.... we're trying to beat the clock here for college in Eastern Canada, folks!


So, I make appointment at doc's office because Blake is having major pain in his stomach and is extremely weak. We see Doctor C at 6:30pm in her office and she's getting concerned. She gets on the phone herself calling all hospitals in the area and asking to speak to radiologists on call. She's gonna get somebody movin' on this! (Thank you, Doc)


It was kind of funny because one person that our doctor spoke with was very abrupt and rude to her. She firmly said "THANK YOU!" and somewhat slammed the phone receiver down and let out a HUGE frustrating sigh. I started laughing, and she looked up at me and laughed. Then she said, "Sometimes I really don't like people in the medical profession!" hahahaha. God bless her.


She said, "Leave it with me. Tomorrow I will make some more calls myself and get SOMEONE to check out this boy!" This lady is a "mover and a shaker" in this community and I knew that things would now begin to roll along.


The doctor DOES suggest to Blake that he reconsider starting school in September. (Oh, my prayers are answered! I'm thinkin' the same thing but worrying that Blake and others will just think I'm an over-reacting Mom who just doesn't want to accept the fact that one of her little birdies is ready to leave the nest! Of course I hate to see my son go away, but right now it's a concern over his health! I don't need a call from the college telling me they found my son unconscious in bed or, worse yet, DEAD!)

So, as it turns out, my doctor IS a "mover and a shaker"; she called me the next day and said she'd arranged an appointment for him to see Doctor B and their office would be calling us with an appointment for a gastroscopy. Sure enough, a paper showed up in the mail indicating a date had been set. Problem was, it was scheduled for later in September.... when Blake would be a couple of provinces away! Obviously Doctor C became aware of this and the appointment was moved up to the very next week! Then a second hospital called to confirm the same procedure.... we had been booked twice for the same appointment on different days. The kind lady on the phone said, "Pick which date you'd like!" haha. I LOVE it. We chose the earliest appointment for August 25th.

Blake - 2007




On the morning of August 24th, Jon's and my stomachs dropped to our feet as Blake told us how he had just been to the bathroom and passed a significant amount of blood in his bowels. He had experienced this the night before, as well, when Jon and I were at our "adopted son" Justin's house; but Blake was in bed when we got home, so we didn't know. I realized we had just "reached a new level of severity" and I could tell Blake now realized how serious this was becoming.


Doctor C had instructed us in the past that if he ever found blood in his stools, we should let her know. Well, she wasn't in the office that day, so I made the decision to take him to the emergency department. I figured at this point, visiting emerg. wouldn't be such a bad idea. Maybe they'd do more tests while we're there.


During triage, the nurse indicated that Doctor C was the one on emerg. that morning anyways, so I was pleased I would not have to go through the long ordeal of what Blake had been experiencing the last year. Doctor C ordered more bloodwork and an x-ray of his back, due to severe pain he was experiencing in that area.



Back x-rays = no problems.



Bloodwork = no problems.




I indicated to Doctor C that Jon was very concerned of the possibility of cancer, due to the painful endurance of multiple myeloma that Jon's late Mom experienced from 2000-2002; and also the leukemia that Jon's late cousin Bobby experienced when Jon & Bobby were around 14 years old. Jon is getting very worried at this point. Doctor C confirmed that his white cell levels are perfect. In the all-is-good range of between 4 & 11, Blake was smack-dab in the middle at 7.7. Good News! Hemoglobin is really good as well, so those little red cells are doing what THEY're supposed to be doing. [insert sigh of relief]


Doctor C suggests we will get more answers from the gastroscopy, which is the following day.


Guess what.......?


No answers from the gastroscopy. Doctor B talks with me after the procedure and indicates that everything looked really good. He has taken a few biopsies anyways, but doesn't expect to find anything. He suggests because of the previous days' bleeding that we get a colonoscopy done. He said his office would call to arrange the procedure within the next week or two.


Fast forward a week. Blake wants to spend a few days with Grandpa & Grandma who live just up the road. Blake arrives there Monday night. I remind him on Tuesday that either his Grandma or I need to get him into town for bloodwork to be done for Doctor B before the colonoscopy. My Mom pulls in my driveway Wednesday morning (I'm assuming to pick up the bloodwork requisition) and she's worried that Blake is very weak and that I should come and look at him and possibly make another trip to emerg.

We get him up and dressed and head to town, after calling the doctor's office to tell them what we're doing.


In triage they weigh him. He's lost three more pounds over the last week.


Doctor N is on duty and suggests...... (any guesses, anyone?....)


......more bloodwork.


Now I'm curious, because I'm bettin' his hemoglobin is down due to last week's bleeding.

After a couple of hours, Doctor N returns to indicate hemoglobin IS down.... probably from bleeding last week as well as being malnourished. (Even though Blake is able to get food down, it doesn't stay very long in his system before he visits the Little Boys Room).

I question whether an I.V. would give him a boost, but she said he is not dehydrated, so she recommends getting him on Ensure, those protein drinks. She said it might help until we get a diagnosis. She also said she wants to schedule him for an abdomenal ultrasound (yeah! Blake has been wanting one of those! My sister experienced same symptoms as Blake when she had problems with her gall bladder, so Blake has been wanting one of these tests! I don't think, however, the doctors feel it's a gall bladder scenario, but his symptoms sure do match Danielle's before she had the gall bladder removal.)


Doctor N will send a report to Doctor C and also she'll ask Doctor C to push harder for that appointment with the rheumatologist, Doctor T. She said there could be a tie between Blake's symptoms and rheumatoid, so she suggests we get in to see this specialist a.s.a.p.


And so, as it stands right now, I have purchased some Strawberry Protein Drink for Blake to "wolf down". He said it doesn't taste good. I told him to just not breathe, then to wolf it down. He said, "CLEARLY, Mother, you do NOT understand that part of my stomach problem is that I CANNOT wolf ANYTHING down!!!!".


Well!


Sorry!




CLEARLY I am out in left field. [wink, wink]



As of today, we have an ultrasound scheduled for September 8th and a colonoscopy scheduled for September 14th.

THAT should bring y'all up to speed. Sorry it's a long post, but many are asking for details. Future posts regarding Blake's health will be shorter, I promise. Remember I'm trying to cram one and a half years into this one post!




I would covet your prayers for Blake as he walks through this valley. I think, deep down, he understands that God must have a reason. Perhaps this will be a time of learning to trust in our Saviour. All the days were ordained for Blake before one of them came to be (Psalm 139:16), so we rest assured in knowing that the Lord is still in control and knows what He's doing!



Also please pray that the Lord helps me retain this sense of peace I am experiencing. I don't understand it one bit because I am definitely a worrier and a fretter. But God has not given us a spirit of fear (Romans 8:15). So I must continue to trust in Him.

Also, before I sign off here, I want you to know that our doctors are WONDERFUL. Absolutely WONDERFUL. I've heard of some pretty uncaring docs out there, but they're not here, thank Goodness. We have always been treated wonderfully and with great care and respect. Hats off and three cheers to our medical profession. And that goes for the AMAZING nurses and technicians out there too! Yes, things are sometimes at a snail's pace, but it helps when they truly care about you... and they do. We also have the Great Physician watching over us. You remember Him, right? The One who never slumbers nor sleeps (Psalm 121:4). We are well cared for!


"But I will restore you to health and heal your wounds," declares the Lord (Jeremiah 30:17)



Thank you for your concern. Thank you for your prayers.


I'll update as things go along. Please leave Blake a comment. Click on the Comments button at the bottom of each post and enter your message. It's that simple. He'll appreciate your words, encouragement, and prayers, I'm sure.



Blake - July 2009

Another Chapter

The beginning of a new month....



The beginning of another autumn season....





....and thus you have it....



....the beginning of another school year.










Early-set alarm clocks....





Wake-up showers....




Non-holed shirts and jeans....





Same-old, same-old lunch....

You can't measure their school days....

....for the time has flown too quickly.

It was just yesterday they climbed into the big yellow bus.

I remember those "first days" of kindergarten..... hadn't these babes just come from my womb? How can they be pulled from my arms to start their new adventure?

And now another page turns....

Another map is coloured....

Memories are recorded at the end of a pencil....

Mistakes are sometimes made.....

....some they can erase....

And some mistakes they will not be able to erase.

They might try and cover them up....

But, as time passes, they'll learn from those mistakes.....

....and, before my eyes, somehow,




they'll grow up.





I am thankful that the Lord watches over them....

....and that He neither slumbers nor sleeps (Psalm 121:4).

Although my mind is constant on them, I can't watch over them all the time. I rest knowing my Lord has His hand upon them.

And so turns another page in MY book....

....another page

....another chapter




....and we continue to turn the pages until we reach The End.



And THAT's the day we begin a whole new book, an eternity of never-ending pages.





Yes, today is a new season...



There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven. (Ecclesiastes 3:1)


.... and so begins another chapter.....